I'm living in your dreams

Soooo.... I've determined.... It's hard to wax your own coochie.

At the same time now... 1... 2... 3... Eeew!

lol.

*sigh*

I miss my esthetician...

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Just popping on to say hi!


Iraq is boring, and getting warm. Tolerable though. 2 more months till home!

Can't wait.


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I'm losing my best friend again.

I can't believe this is happening... AGAIN. Over a girl no less. AGAIN.

It's not "official" yet, but my spidey sense is tingling that I'm about two inches away from being shut out of his life again. Fuck me too, right?

"im not going to let any one say i cant talk to you id dump some one as fast as i went out with them if they said that i cant talk to you. i learned my lesson."

I guess we'll see, sir :p

Oh well.




Some day.



I'll find the one some day.


Che sarà sarà.



Ambiguous? Yes. I don't feel compelled to elaborate. Mi dispiace.

I just got my wisdom teeth pulled today and aside from having a hard time swallowing, I'm not doing too badly... yay for vicodin lol.

I'm kinda sad though... i want my wolf boy with me. He's got a 96 (96 hours of free time) this weekend so I'm hoping he's having a good time.
I miss him though. I'm not going to be the crazy clingy lady I used to be in a relationship this time around.

Ugh, eating jello with gauze in the mouth is weird lol.

I had a dream I went to go get a tattoo.

Well, the lady FUCKED it up. She came over (I was standing for some reason) and just started doing it. It felt like she was only there for  a few seconds, so I was like, ok maybe she did know I only wanted something little. Then I saw it and it was a HUGE claw on my right shoulderblade. I was like, WTF WOMAN??!! You didn't ask me anything! You didn't ask me where I wanted it, how big I wanted it, or what I even wanted! You didn't even do an outline! 
Ooooooh I was pissed.
It was weird. I don't even want any tattoos, but I had a dream about it.
Ah well.

Adam snores.... how cuuuuuuuuuute hahahaha.

Anyway, I'm supposed to be packing all my stuff and moving it over to my grandparents house... I'm so lazy though, I just don't want to do it. Blaaaah.   

Yep! It's been what... a year? Crazy!
Just a quick update:

I'm going to Iraq in February. I'm excited! It'll be my first time out of the US. It's really chill over there now anyway, so I'm not worried at all.

That's really it, except well.. my boyfriend is awesome. WOO!
Oh yeah about that, Michael and I broke up over the summer. I wasn't going to bother dating anyone for a while because it's not like I left him for someone else. I just decided it's not what I want. I'm growing up a little bit. Kinda... I guess.. haha. I'll never grow up. But seriously, our relationship before bootcamp was so monotonous and dead ended as much as I wanted to believe differently. As much as he said he can change, I don't want him to change because of me. He is who he is and he will find someone more compatible than I was. Looking back at old journal entries on my deadjournal it's just like... wow... I was with someone like that... It's hard to believe with my personality.
Besides, he'd fallen out of love with me twice now... who's to say it wont happen again? And in less than 3 years it happened too. Am I supposed to anticipate that heartbreak every couple years? That's fucked up, I'm sorry, but no.
I'm not saying I regret anything though, because I wouldn't be where I am if anything had been different.

I'm now dating my best friend. How did that happen? I don't know! Haha!

He's been my best friend for YEARS, I love his family, and we have memories together. We have a lot in common personality wise. He actually understands my humor because well, he's got the same kind! Someone who actually accepts me as me, lets me be me, and doesn't try to change me, my habits, or my quirks. How awesome is that? Who doesn't want to be with someone they don't have to hide anything from?

We both just got kind of lucky. We were both moving on from our ex's and it just clicked; We'd probably make a good couple. So, here we are, giving it a shot.

Here's to a positive future!

omgeee I leave tomorrow morning :o

Hopefully I'll be back around the end of January!

Ciaaaaaaao everyone!!

I was supposed to wake up at 12 this morning, but I guess I forgot to press ON when I set it... So I instead woke up at 2:50 to Michael calling me, and holy crap I'm so sad. I really really really wanted to see him today before he left for work. It shouldn't be a big deal because I saw him yesterday and I'll see him tomorrow but dang it, I was missing him last night 
Stuffs getting closer and closer and I just want to be able to see him as much as I can before I go

THEY FEEL AWESUMZ

XDDDDDDDDD

Halome (12:14:00 am): WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
Jerseykat (12:14:10 am): WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
Halome (12:14:22 am): Did I tell you about the girls gone wild thing a few months ago?
Jerseykat (12:14:30 am): Yeah!
Halome (12:14:36 am): There back LOL
Jerseykat (12:14:54 am): Omg LOL
Jerseykat (12:14:56 am): DON'T GO WILD
Halome (12:15:42 am): Aparently I have cute feet o.O
Jerseykat (12:15:49 am): wtfs
Jerseykat (12:15:51 am): YOU WENT WILD
Jerseykat (12:15:59 am): GODAMNIT YOU WENT WILD
Halome (12:16:03 am): Iono if I should take the compliment or be weirded out they were looking at my feet LOL
Halome (12:16:18 am): YES I DID I STRIPPED MY SHOES AND WENT CRAZY
Jerseykat (12:16:22 am): You know what they say about nice feet.
Jerseykat (12:16:24 am): THEY SAY YOU GONE WILD.
Jerseykat (12:16:27 am): lolololol
Halome (12:16:29 am): hahahhahahhaa
 

STOLEN FROM lemon_vampire

 Pick five series and then answer the questions. Don't look at the questions before you choose!

1. ALIAS
2. Passions
3. Prison Break
4. Scrubs
5. Meerkat Manor

1. Which is your favorite series from your list? And why?
Passions. I've watched that rediculous soap opera since the day it came on 8 years ago.

2. If you were to pair two characters from 1 and 4, who would they be?
Holy crap they're like two different genres... Eric from Alias with uh Dr. Elliot Reid from scrubs I guess. They're both a little quirky.

3. What is one thing you'd like to change about 3's plotline?
Nothing really I don't think. I haven't seen it in a while so I don't know what's really going on.

4. If both main characters of 2 and 5 were falling off a cliff, which one would you save?
Neither have "Main" characters! Though if Squiggy the baby meerkat survived I'd save him from falling off. CAUSE HES SO CUTEEEE

5. Which event was the most horrible for you in 1?
WHEN THE BLONDE BITCH MARRIED SYDNEYS LOVER. I hate blonde bitches!!

6. Which is your least favorite character of 2?
Gwen's a bitch. Um... I don't like Miguel either. He only want Kay 'cause he couldn't get Charity, and that ruined Fox's relationship with her and that made me sad 'cause Fox was cool.

7. If the antagonist of 3 were to rape the main character of 1, what would you do?
That would be sick. I'd hate the producers because Sydney's supposed to be tougher than that.

8. What song reminds you of 5?
Sexy Back... 'cause it's on the commercials :P

9. Of 1, 3, and 5, which is the easiest to think about?
1 because it consumed my Sunday nights with out fail every week, and usually a DVD set was expected every year for my birthday :P

10. Are the protagonists of 2 and 4 similar?
Not at all. I don't really think anyone is always the protagonist in Soap operas anyway.

I suddenly have the desire to go to the zoo to see the big cats.


I don't have anyone here that would want to go though :/

Blah here's an emo post.

I keep hoping that he's going to surprise me with more affection or saying "I love you"  but it doesn't happen. I'm starting to think it never will.

Regardless of the rejection I feel I'm still in love with him. I don't want to just give up.  Most girls would, and look else where.
I mean, he shows affection and all, but not the same sweetness as someone who really loves another would. It's a constant reminder that he's NOT in love with me anymore. It makes me wonder why I keep trying to show my affection so much if it's just going to be met with a "cool" or "awe" or "cute", instead of acknowledgment that there is affection from their end also. He seems detached.

I'm wondering if he's been letting other people influence him. There's a guy he works with he seems to look up to. I guess he's a big guy(muscular), Taoist,  I suppose happy. I asked Michael the other day if he's ever been married, and his response was "Nope! Fred's smart."
That was a massive stab in the heart. All my hopes of him proposing or him doing something to show commitment to me just completely crushed in that 3 word response. God words are painful.
I don't even care about marriage. I just guess I want something in my mind to symbolize that we are committed to each other and that it's not just going to go away :-/

4 years on September 9th. Part of me is hoping hoping hoping for something amazing to happen.The other part just wants me to crawl in to a hole and cry because I'm afraid that anything that goes on that day will just disappoint me and crush my dreams even more.

I worked at Pluckers tonight and was nice enough to close for dear lovely Joy. I figured I had nothing to do tonight so why not!

It was relatively slow the first...5 hours. So we goofed off a bit, I was showing some of the girls video of Loki using the toilet because Joy wanted to see. It was hilarious to see some of their reactions. Have to upload those videos to myspace for Joy, haha.

Half way through the night, Lindsay decides she want's to make cookies! I documented the experiment!


Joy tried using gloves, but failed miserably 'cause it was so sticky.

I wish I had my real camera with me, because Lindsay is hilarious. I just made them watch the Otter dance(See reference), and here she was trying to replicate that:



And finally, the cookies!!



They came out looking HORRIBLE! You can see Joy pointing to my super-sized cookie that didn't exactly come out like I was hopping... none of them came out like we hoped.. but they tasted great!!

Then this group of theater people came in from Eldridge around...10:45PM. It was... an experience, to say the least! I GOT TO SHOW THEM MY NEW BAR/SCIENCE TRICK! And they did their little theater applause for me, it was funl

Got out around 1AM, went home, made some brats...and watched Click. And cried. A lot. I think the last time I cried that much during a movie was when Sassy fell down the waterfall in Homeward Bound. The movie was so sad. Of course everything gets fixed in the end, but oh my gosh so sad.
Adam Sandler and Kate Beckinsale make a cute couple on screen too. The beginning they're so cute and awe..

Okay, I suppose I don't really have anything else to do, so off to sleep..